On the mend

Ok, so the last week has SUCKED! I have been very sick with a chest cold/sinus cold/ear infection. So no working out. And no counting calories. Oh well. I am on the mend and I think I will try working out tomorrow. I started tracking again today so things are looking up. I also got two new pairs of shoes and I'm very excited to get to use them FINALLY! Oh and the 90 day challenge starts MONDAY!!! So excited about this!

Gah!

Sick again.... blah! After mondays workout I got all congested and sore throated. So I will be waiting a bit to work out again. How annoying! Just when I was starting to really get into the groove. Oh well. Merry Christmas! And a crappy new year...No wait, HAPPY new year. Ten days until I start the 90 day challenge!

Sunday and Monday

Blah! Not feeling the greatest. Oh well. It's to be expected when my whole family is not doing that great either.
I did exercise both days. Sunday I did a 10K in 47:07 which is 7:35 min miles. I was pretty pleased. I truthfully should have started out faster so it wasn't so hard at the end. But I was still happy with it.
Monday:
Ran 1.5 miles to start then did:

20 Leg Lifts
30 Thrusters - 25 lb barbell
20 KTE
30 Box Jumps - 14" Box as I don't have a higher one. Put that on the list of things to get.
20 Sumo Dead lift high pulls - 20 lbs
30 Burpees - seriously nearly killed me.
20 Push press - 20 lbs
40 Walking lunges.

I finished in 9:43 which was pretty good, though the knees to elbow were some real some from the hanging straps.
Finished off with a half mile jog/ cool down. Too tired to do more and the babies started walking up. (Secretly so glad they did. ;)

I am going to need to do a burpee challenge as I HATE them and they kill me every time.

I look in to it.

I didn't track my calories yesterday as it was crazy with a family breakfast, a birthday party at lunch and then exercising and trying to cook dinner and bath time etc etc etc. SO, I started fresh today.

My Plate: I am enjoying my last two weeks of freedom eating. The 90 day challenge starts SOOON!

Another Rest Day

I was actually going to exercise today, but then I felt nauseous every time I moved around so I though running was probably right out. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow as I want to do a long run. And I want to work on my kipping pull ups. We'll see how it goes.

My Plate: 

Friday

Today was low on energy until I got started.
Ran 3 miles in 22:15 then did:

21 - 15 - 9 of
Clean - 35 Lbs
Bench dips

3:30

I ran the first mile at about 8 min mile pace then sprinted the last two. It was epic. Now I am TIRED!
I didn't track calories today as my kids and husband are both sick and I didn't have time to sit in front of the computer . Oh well.

Thursday

Today, well it left me totally exhausted.

I did 10 rounds of
12 Burpees
12 Pull ups

I also ran two miles before I started. Then 24:26 for the WOD and then I walked/jogged for half a mile then ran 1 more mile after that to get a total of 3.5. I can still barely get my arms up.

My Plate:

Wednesday

I did this workout today.

5 Rounds for time of
7 75 lb Deadlift
30 squats
7 pushups

I did it in 7:24. I ran a mile warm up and then ran another two miles after I caught my breath and finished in 15:46. It was great and painful. The squats nearly destroyed me!

My Plate for today. 

Rest Day

Today is a rest day. Not falling asleep till nearly midnight and then getting up at 5:45, then working till dinner, did not allow for any energy for after dinner workouts. But that is not unusual.

MY Plate for the day. 

Time for some sleep and then maybe some more sleep.

Progress

I worked with Ben Selvaggio yesterday on all the olympic style lifts and was really happy that I was mostly doing them all correctly. Yippe!
Today I did this.

Ran 1 mile warm up.

3:27 w/ 25 Lb Bar for thrusters and BPU.

Then ran sprints for 3 miles finishing in 21:49

It was awesome and really killed me and now I feel that much better. Oh and I weighed in at 147 yesterday too. Another Yippee! I will get there!

What I want to look like

But what bugs me a bit is that sometime I feel like they say do Crossfit and you can look like this. When in reality you have to train like a beast for YEARS and hone your diet to a T to get these kind of results. Oh I know that I can make a change in my body but to really look they way I want to look, ie like an athlete, I would have to train like an athlete and I simply don't have time to do that. I am a mother and a wife and I work. My life and my time are not all my own. An hour a day or less is about as much as I can commit too, which is really OK. I can eat clean and exercise at as high an intensity as I can and I will see results, but probably not those kind of results.

Speaking of which I did a 20 X20 workout yesterday. It nearly killed me and it was actually a 19X20 as I forgot one of the exercises. But hopefully I will do better next time it comes around. I feel so pathetic just starting out, but I know in about a year I'll be killing these workouts. And maybe by then I'll just graduate myself up to real Crossfit.

7 Months PP

And here we are again.

Seven months PP. It was about this time two years ago that my son went on a nursing strike and refused to ever nurse again.
The upshot was that I lost all the baby weight shortly after that.

But this girl doesn't seem to be inclined to stop the boob any time soon.

But I am making progress.

Eating: Eating is going well. I am still tracking my calories and being more careful, which makes me feel more in control and better. Yippe! I need to improve my habits as far as sugar, but Dan and I are going to do a 90 Challenge at the beginning of the year and so then my food habits will get even better. We are waiting for the challenge to start over as there is only a month left in this current cycle  

Exercise: I have now really starting to get into the Crossfit type workouts and have been making slow progress and even better have been increasing my mileage at the same time. I did 21 miles last week and should have about the same this week. We'll see, but that makes me super happy as I know running does work as far as general weight loss. Now I just want to build my muscles and get some leanness going on!

This is the site http://www.hiitmamas.blogspot.com/

Measurements:
4 Months:
Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9
5 Months:
Chest: 36.5, Midsection: 33.5,  Waist: 30.25,  Hips: 40.25, Thighs: 22.25, Bicep: 11.5
6 Months:
Chest:36, Midsection: 33.75, Waist: 30,  Hips: 40, Thighs: 21.5,  Bicep:11.25
7 Months:
Chest:36, Midsection: 32.5, Waist: 29.5,  Hips: 40, Thighs: 21.5, Bicep: 11

So yes, I am getting smaller, but still far to squishy for my taste. BUT I am improving. 

Weight: 148-149. Yippee! I am in the 140's!

Life: Good and getting better as Dan is now going to be home a lot more often! YES! Thank GOD! The kids are getting along well and not having Dan away makes for a much happier household. I am not as stressed and some of the things that were really bumming me out before have started to resolve.

Pics:
And here are some pics. Both of my and also my darlings...

Thanksgiving

So busy time with the fam and all that. Tomorrow I will do a 7 month postpartum update with pics and the whole nine yards.
I just need to load the pics on the computer and all that jazz. I am actually making some progress, which is so nice to be able to say!
I have been doing really well with the eating except for the last couple days, but that is to be expected really
I didn't chart my cals for two days but did yesterday and today and will continue on tomorrow.
It's been really helpful to keep my from stuffing my face with no thought for the future.
I have been doing the Hiit Mamas/Crossfit for a couple of weeks and am really liking it. I am also running in addition to it and actually reached 21 miles last week. I can't even remember the last time I did that...
Anyway, I am happy and now I need to go to bed because I have to get up earllllllyyyyyy! Blah!

Hiiting Mamas :)

So I've been doing Hiit Mamas and running and I think I really like it. In fact I am going to do a 90 day challenge the next time it comes around. I still can't cut my calories too much as my milk supply takes a dive. But in another month and a half we'll see where we're at. Sunday I also ran six miles in 46:30 minutes which was AWESOME! I can't give up running all together as I really do love it. So we'll see where this takes me.
I'll post more about the challenge when I have time.
Oh and speaking of which, I never wrote about the 100 challenge I did a while back. I did it for about three weeks and then petered out mostly because of time and the fact that it was hurting my knees. So oh well, but I think that it was still beneficial what I did do.

Last Week

Last week I was away from home and not able to track calories. (The computer didn't work with the livestrong.com website. Stupid.) Anyway, I did manage three awesome workouts and so for that I feel accomplished and good. I also ate a lot better then I did last time which also contributes to me feeling better about myself.

Workout one was this: http://blondeponytail.com/2013/03/dirty-30-workout/
I did it as PX'd and it was good.
Workout two was this:http ://blondeponytail.com/2013/08/head-to-toe-hiit-workout-reebok-nano-3-0s/
I had to modify the overhead lunges to a gallon of windex because that is what I had to work with and the 35lb kettle bell was TOO much!
Workout three was this: http://blondeponytail.com/2012/08/crossfitstyleanywhereworkout/
I also modified this one because I didn't have the stamina or the equipment for all the things. So I used a 25 lb bag of rice for the overhead lunges and the thrusters and I didn't have a jump rope so I just did high knees and truth to tell only did 25 on each leg instead of 50 on each.
But I was encouraged and feel better for having pushed myself! Yippee!

Now back to tracking calories tomorrow now that I am home. I WILL do it without trouble darn it!

Crossfit

So the last couple of years I have flirted with the idea of doing Crossfit. Mostly because it's awesome. It's complete and for strong girls and I love the idea of just ripping through a workout. But I never have because it's inconvenient for a mom. I can't get to the gym every day or even every couple of days to do the WOD's and I love to run. I really do. I am addicted to it. But  I also know that running is not going to get me the body I want. I want muscle and definition and LEAANNNNESSS. Which isn't going to happen with running. I will get smaller, but I will also not get definition. It's not a total body workout.
So I have decided to do some of the exercises from this website.

http://www.hiitmamas.blogspot.com/

It's a modified version of crossfit geared toward Moms who can't go to the gym all the time.

So far, so good. (two days in.) I probably won't do all the workouts and I will still include running. And maybe some weights if I don't feel like I'm lifting enough.
We shall see where it takes me.
Hopefully here!

Six Months PP

So it has been six months since I had this little squirt. She is such a precious baby! I can't believe how happy and smiley she is. She has a grin for everyone walking by. It's so cute!


Eating: Good! Finally getting the eating under control. I have been faithfully tracking calories on LiveStrong.com and doing really well with it. I feel better and more in control of my life, and that helps. I haven't seen any progress in dropping the pounds so I might switch things up a bit, but truthfully, the girl is still eating five times a day so it might just take more time and less nursing.

Exercise:  Exercise has been going really well, and I feel like progress is continuing to be made, though I am sick to death of my things and butt being so big! :)
I came across a HIIT workout site and I might do more of this. I just am so conflicted about what I really want to do vs what actually works. I love to run and it makes me feel good and even helps me stay in shape, but truth to tell, it's not going to burn the fat away like HIIT and weight lifting.... I am going to try to incorporate everything, but the problem is, I try to do too many different things and it just doesn't all fit.

This is the site http://www.hiitmamas.blogspot.com/

Today is running a five K, which I may or may not do. I might just stick to my other HIIT workout for today.

Measurements:
4 Months:
Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9
5 Months:
Chest: 36.5, Midsection: 33.5,  Waist: 30.25,  Hips: 40.25, Thighs: 22.25, Bicep: 11.5
6 Months:
Chest:36, Midsection: 33.75, Waist: 30,  Hips: 40, Thighs: 21.5,  Bicep:11.25

Small improvements, but nothing to jump up and down about yet. :) 

Weight: 151, but then I checked the next day and it was 154. So really, who the heck knows!

Life: Good, other then my two year old is having issues with his dad being away at work for a week at a time. It really SUCKS! He asks about him all the time. I guess it's better then him not liking his dad, but it is really rough on both of them. Dan get's so sad every time Jackson says, "don't leave me Daddy! Take me wif you." But hopefully it will work out for us to go with him next week.

Pics:
And here are some pics.

 

Wow.. Yick. Ok here are some more pics of my kiddos. Much nicer pics!

And so it begins.

Emma is officially six months old today. SO in celebration of that, I have started to track calories. I will faithfully keep my calorie intake under close scrutiny. I have also dropped a feeding and added solids to her diet. Which means, I SHOULD start to see some progress. (I BETTER!) Anyway. I am excited to start, though the problem in the past is just making the time to do it. It's not an issue on the days when I am in the office in front of the computer, but when I'm not, it's a PITA to find the time to remember and record everything. Though it has been highly effective for me as well. So it's time to suck it up and do it. I am tired of being 15lbs overweight and not fitting into my clothes.
I am making good progress with exercise and have even managed to run fairly fast. I am sub eight minute miles already so that makes me happy. I am still working on the heavy weights. I'll get stronger as I go.
And I will post a six month update with all the stats (depressing) and so forth probably tonight or tomorrow.

Back on Track

So this last couple of days since I've been home, I've been getting back on track. I ran 4 miles in 30:48 on Friday, lifted weights Saturday, ran five miles Sunday and did my 100 Situps, pushups, squats with quarter mile sprints and then another two miles on Monday. In other words, I've been kicking butt! I needed too though. HOLY COW! I got home with puffy fingers, and feeling fatter then I have in a long while. I have also cut out sugar except my daily square of dark chocolate, because let's face it, a day without dark chocolate is not a day worth having.. :)
I am going to make the right choices! DANG IT! I will! On he 29th I start tracking calories and keeping myself to reasonable amount per day. No too drastic as I am still nursing five to six times a day but definitely reigning in my insatiable appetite. The 29th is Emma's sixth month birthday and has been a turning point in weight loss after pregnancy before. We'll see.
I am excited to finally get some where after months of being the same!

Sick & Away

So I was sick and away from home for the last two weeks. Thus no posting and truthfully no exercising. And even more truthfully really bad eating. BLAH! I feel very fat and will be following a very strict diet of EXERCISE and eating better. It should be good. Hopefully.

Five Months

Can you believe it's been five months already? I can't believe it. In one way I am SOOO thankful to be past the newborn stage but in another way, it's kind of sad to see her grow up so fast.

I will say that I am pretty much where I thought I would be as far as fitness goes. I know that I don't lose weight until I stop nursing, so the fact that my body has yet to shed any of the extra weight it not unexpected. It sucks but it's not unexpected. :)
Though I did manage to take my measurements this week. I know I'm several days late on this post, but I have been crazy busy at work and busy at home while Dan has been gone working and so right now is the time I have.


Eating: Still not great but getting better. Emma has started eating oatmeal once or twice a day so that should help me start to trim down a bit. I will be tracking calories probably in another month. I'll wait for the tedious agony until it will be REALLY effective! :)

Oatmeal pic:

Exercise:  Yep, still kicking butt on the exercise, which is encouraging. I went to the chiropractor and
got adjusted so some of the lower hip, back, sacrum issues are a bit better. I ran five miles total last week, pathetic but I was really focusing more on HIIT. So I was doing the 100 challenge with quarter miles sprints between rounds and another mile for good measure. It is a KILLER workout and takes almost half an hour. This week I ran five miles on Thursday in 39 minutes so that was good and I did another great weight work out on Tuesday. More running and maybe a POPHitt this weekend. We'll see.
I'm thinking I might alternate weeks in doing more or less running. I still love to run but I know that other kinds of body weight and HIIT are way more effective in helping me shed. We'll see. I will be training for the Midnight Sun Run next summer and I WILL beat my PR of 44:24. I want to do it in under 43 minutes... We'll see. (It's a 10K)

Measurements: Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9
Those were my measurements last months.
These are my measurements this month.
Chest: 36.5,Midsection: 33.5,  Waist: 30.25,  Hips: 40.25, Thighs: 22.25, Bicep: 11.5

As you see some progress. Though my thighs appear to be getting larger... but I will believe that's because the muscle is growing!

Weight: Last time I checked, 152. It's been about a week.

Life: Pretty good. I am getting the hang of the whole being a mother of two thing, and it's going a lot better. Though my two year old is really flexing his being a person muscle. WOW! HELP LORD!

Here are some family pics.

 

 

Safe & Sound

That's the song going through my head at the moment. It's catchy. I shall have to download it and add it to my running list.
Speaking of running, I ran six miles on Sunday. In 46:50 no less. It's only the second time since having Emma that I've run that distance so I am quite pleased with my progress. It was on the treadmill and my hips have hurt since, but so what? I did it! In other news, I am still doing well with the 100 challenge and in better news I am going to the chiropractor next week! HURRAH! I can't wait!

"Just Keep Swimming"

Yep, that about sums it up really. I am tired and low energy and depressed by how I look, but I know that I am doing the right things to keep gaining on my goal of getting back to pre pregnancy fitness/strength TRIM!
So I am now on day six of my 100 challenge. It should be day seven, but I skipped Sunday because it was crazy and I literally never had time. Oh well. I ran 15 miles last week, which was encouraging to see the number climb a bit.
I did a kick ass work out Tuesday night, thinking I only had a SHORT amount of time before baby woke up from her after dinner nap, I did my hundred challenge and threw in quarter mile sprints with every round. Then I ran a fast but comfortable mile afterwards and called it a night.
Yesterday I did this workout - http://www.blogilates.com/pop-hiits. And let me tell ya, OUCH! on the burpee to tuck jumps. Yick! Tonight I am trying to decide if I should do weights or go run. BLAHH!!! Probably weights. Oh and baby is rolling over!
Totally unrelated but it's so cute!

I still weigh a lot and am still not eating that great. But as soon as I start her on solids, I will buckle down and get my act together.

CHALLENGE!!!

Ok, so Sunday I ran 4 miles at a 8 mpm pace. Monday I kicked butt in a weight work out... very similar to the one I already posted. Tuesday was off, because my DH is away and yesterday, I ran on the treadmill yesterday and did a smokin' 3 miles in 22:48. Plus I added another mile for a total of 4 in 30:40. I was doing quarter mile sprints so I was exhausted and then I decided to do a challenge.
For one month ,100 air squats, 100 sit ups (real ones) and 100 pushups. I did it and it was not too bad, though I was already very tired.
I ran another four miles today though it was outside and SLOOOWWW.. compared to yesterday. I was tired so there's no surprise there.
I am eating on a time schedule now. It helps me not snake all day and night if I have specific times for meals. So I eat at 7 AM 10-10:30 12:30 3:30 -4 6 PM and 9 PM. I'm hoping to cute out the extraneous snacking and this has helped in the past.

Sore!

Well Monday I FINALLY made it to the gym and did a awesome hard workout with HEAVY weights. (OK, my version of heavy but a lot heavier then I have been doing the last two months or so.)
This is a brief overview of what I did. I do two exercises and switch between them three times so like
Abs/Calves each set 20/12 times then a different exercise/same muscle group.
Then Quads/Hamstrings - which was Back squat and walking lunges. - I worked up to 105 lbs squat and only 20lb lunges.
Chest/Back - Dumbbell bench press/Rows - up to 30 lb dumbbell (ohYA) in both exercises.
Bicep/Triceps - Dumbbell twist curls/and triceps kickback
Shoulder/hips - uprightrows/ side lifts

Tuesday I took the day off because I really needed it.

Wednesday this workout kicked my butt! http://www.blogilates.com/pop-hiits
Thursday I ran 4 miles in 31:25. It was on the treadmill, but it was still a pretty good run though I had to dodge a giant exercise ball that my 2 yr old threw on the treadmill on the last minute...
Eating, well, it's not so good, but it's getting better. I need to grow some will power soon!

4 Month PP

Well Emma is four months old today. Just about this time four months ago, I was starting hard/active labor. It sucked! AAHHHH! I can't even think about if I want another child yet. It's still WAYYYY too fresh.
But in other news, this is the workout I did today and it KILLED me. In a good way of course.

There is a video on how to do it but I can't find it at the moment. And wow I deleted the rest of this post on accident. I don't remember what I wrote and I have no energy to do so so oh well.

I think it was about the same as month three so we'll leave it at that.

Kick Butt Time

OK, so not really, but I did run 3 miles in 23:50 outside, so really for real and I was tired too. It's progress though I still look like I had a baby four months ago. But that's really fine too. I keep reminding myself that it's fine to look like this for a while. When I stop breast feeding it will be another story. I won't get frustrated that I still don't fit into 75% of my clothes and won't for a while longer. I continue to hope and believe and work toward getting back into shape.
It's for me. It's what I do for me and to keep sane when taking care of my family. I love it. It's like therapy for me. I listen to good music and I am alone.. (usually, though recently I have been bringing Jackson into the exercise room with me when I'm home with him.)
But it's just me against me and I like that.
I will post a full blown month update so I can see that I really truly haven't made any progress in a month. :)

We ROCK!

Yesterday I ran three miles in 22:50. YIPPEE! I was running and realized that I had a lot of energy and that I could be going a lot faster then I had been. I upped the speed from 8 mph to 8.5 mph instead of the 7.2 to 7.8 that I had been doing. It felt GREAT! Unfortunately, I got my new ipod stuck on one song repeat and didn't want to take the time to figure out how to get it off. So I listened to "If I Lose Myself" by One Republic like five times in a row. It's a good song, but it does get old too..
And then Sunday I ran six miles. I haven't done that since I was like five or six months pregnant. I can't even remember it's been so long!
I ate OK and now after my anniversary is over, (the 26th) I am off sugar. All sweet breads, all cookies, all that jazz. I will still take a tiny bit in my tea because otherwise I don't like it and I NEEED tea at the moment. Both kids are not well... SUCK!

3 Months PP

I just found this old post that I never finished due to craziness. So I will post it now. I didn't even finish it but that's fine too.


Eating: Ya, I would rather not talk about my eating. I am doing terribly at not eating bad things and having any kind of self control. I just can't muster the energy to care. I am planning a wedding shower, my husband is gone working for the week, I am STRESSED at work and my two year old is giving me a run for my money. He is SOOOO much work at the moment!

Exercise:  Well, this is actually one place where I feel like I'm making progress. I have been doing more popalaties, and that has been a challenge! The work outs are HARD and I feel like I will actually get the kind of body I want from doing them. I am still running, though a lot less then previously. I ran five miles the other weekend and it hurt still. My uterus seems to still be stretched out or something, because it didn't appreciate it at all. Also my sacrum hurt and still does if I do more then three miles. But progress is progress and I will take anything I can get as far as encouragement at the moment.

Measurements: Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9


Weight: I don't know.

Life: TIRED! STRESSED! TIRED! FEEL FAT!!! !BLAAHHHH!!!!! That about sums it up. I have no reason to complain about my awesome baby, because she is practically perfect in every way. :) Seriously. The girl sleeps well, eats well, is happy and sweet and all together beautiful.

Picture: No. I don't want to take a picture this week. I will add more pics when I have two seconds to call my own. 

Working out!

Yippee! So I did this work out yesterday.
http://www.blogilates.com/pop-hiits

These are so crazy hard! I can barely get through them, but it makes me feel like I've truly done everything I can do to make my body better for that day. I actually picked Jackson up and did the lunges while holding him, which he loved and it was still quite challenging for me.

I am not eating great still. I just haven't had the energy to put into eating great with all the chaos of the last couple of weeks and knowing that I won't lose a pound until I start dropping feedings. In fact I stepped on the scale, (such a bad plan.) and it told me 154. But I do eat more when I am stressed out and I have been VERY stressed out recently. But now life should be getting back to normal so that will be awesome!
I ran on Monday, four miles on the treadmill, and on Wednesday. I did intervals Wednesday outside and killed myself running 3.5 miles. I also did side box jumps which are jumping jacks onto a box essentially. They HURT!

I am getting excited though about really focusing on getting back into shape. I WILL do this!

Crazy Weddingness

My sister's wedding and wedding festivities was last week and the week before. Thus I was out of commission for posting or for that matter exercising & eating well. I ate total crap, and exercised once in two weeks.... Blah! I feel and look fat. I will post pics of the wedding and such and now that all the guests and family are gone I will be able to get back to my regularly scheduled programs.. :)

Not a real post

This is not a real post. It's more a promise of a real post. I will post possibly tomorrow when I have time to sit down and do it. It might rain so I won't feel like I need to be outside while our fast passing summer lasts. I am really ready to have some major changes happening to my body, but that won't happen for a while yet, especially not when I keep eating the way I have been. Though I did manage not to eat sugar all last week. 

I will, as I say update later. 

And Time Goes Marching On

Eating: I hate the fact that the last week or so, I have been terrible with the eating. Rather I have been GREAT at eating crap and eating A LOT. I am still hungry all the time and don't have the energy or care to go find something that is actually good for me. So, I am feeling fatter then ever and not making ANY progress. I do know that I won't lose weight for a while yet, but I feel SOOO fat and ugly at the moment. I hate it. I HATE feeling like this. It's enough to make me not have any more kids. The process from pregnant to normal is so LONG. Blah!

Exercise: Well, I have been continuing to only get four times a week, but that's better then none. I KILLED myself today with this workout... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnlWN4p9WiA. I think I should incorporate more of her workouts as HOLY CRAP! they are amazingly hard for me. I love it. I think I'll try to do more of them in the future. Running is fine and I have been able to get faster on the treadmill and outside, but running really won't make me look like I want to look. BUT, I still enjoy it.

Measurements: Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9
I haven't checked this this week. My clothes seem to be getting a little less tight, but that could just be my imagination. Ya, they are basically the same this week too. I don't want to think about it. Blah.

Weight: 155 yesterday. YUCK! So ya, not the greatest testament to will power here.

Life: Dan is going away for a week tomorrow and that really sucks and makes me want to stress. I tend to eat more when I'm stressed and I eat more when I'm happy and I eat more when I'm bored and I eat more all the time. Why do I like food so much. It's GOT to stop. This week while he is gone I am attempting to break my addiction to sugar. I have had a free hand with the sugar for far to long. If I cut one thing at a time, I think I can do it and with Dan gone, I won't have any reason to eat all the junk (Popsicles all the time.) It will be good for me. I need to regrow my will power. It's gotten flabby with little use. :)
My sister is also getting married in about a month and I am the maid of honor, so I have been planning like mad for her shower. She's having TWELVE attendants and so it's been a lot of talking. I've been so busy with that that I haven't had time to really do much else, thus I haven't blogged in a long time.
But I will make more of an effort as having to come here and admit defeat makes me want to try a bit harder.

And here is my sweetie. 

2 Months and a bit PP

Wow, I have no time! Seriously! No time! AAAHHH! Oh well. I am making some progress and exercising well. Though it's still hard to get more then four days a week at this point. I can't WAIT until Emma takes two naps a day. Life will be much more predictable at that point.

Eating: This week has not been great with the calorie tracking. Like I said before, I don't have time. When I finally get to not be holding a baby or taking care of my two year old, I either want to sleep, sit and stare or go exercise. So, no the eating is not on track. Oh well. I will get there eventually. When I have the time I still chart, but at this point I am more just trying to not eat ALL. THE. TIME! I hate nursing for so many reasons.

Exercise:  Like I said before, I have been keeping up on the exercise. I ran three miles in 24:28 yesterday, which was really encouraging and outside too, which is even better. I am definitely getting faster quicker this time round. I did weights tonight and was able to squat 105, which isn't that note worthy, but I am building back up. I am going to do more interval/HIIT tomorrow and then maybe try a long run. Earlier this week I managed to run 4 miles, which marks the farthest I've gone in so many months I can't even remember....

Measurements: Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9
I haven't checked this this week. My clothes seem to be getting a little less tight, but that could just be my imagination.

Weight: 152, but that changes depending on how much I drink, when I nursed last etc etc etc etc.

Life: Well, my husband has to work out of town for the next several months, though not every week and so that is not fun at all... He was gone Monday through Wednesday this week and he goes again in another week. BLAH! Taking care of two very small children alone is no fun. But it's time to put on my big girl pants and suck it up. I can do it with two if my mom did it with FIVE. My sister is also getting married in a bit over a month and I am the Maid of Honor, so I have a lot of work to do in that department.

Picture: No. I don't want to take a picture this week. I will add more pics when I have two seconds to call my own. 

8 Weeks PP

Well here we are at 8 weeks postpartum. THANK GOD! I am so glad that the first two months are almost over. It's definitely the hardest time. You are trying to catch up on sleep and heal and nurse and juggle all the things that you used to have to do in your old life with the HUGE job of caring for an infant. Blah! Not my favorite.
But things are finally settling down a bit. I still hate nursing and it still hurts, but not like it did the first six weeks. Hopefully in the next couple it will be even less of an issue.

Eating: So today is the first day of tracking my calories on Livestrong.com. I am doing well today! Hurrah! One day at a time right? I am also not eating wheat as my husband wants to do that and it's an easy thing to drop at the moment. I am trying to keep my dairy intake low as it effects Emma. I will always allow myself one square of Lindt dark chocolate as life would not be worth living with out dark chocolate :) Here is the link for myplate. http://www.livestrong.com/myplate/

Exercise: So far, so good. I did this workout today. With lots of breaks, but heck, I did just push a kid out! I also ran on Sunday, worked out with heavy weights on Saturday and ran a really great run on Friday night.
So things are off to a good start. Now I just have to keep going..

Measurements: Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 31  Hips:41  Thighs:21.5  Biceps: 11.5 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9
I expect that everything will get bigger and uglier and heavier, before it gets better.... thus is the facts when you are breastfeeding.

Weight: 154 this morning. Yuck.

Life: It is perking up. The weather outside it wonderful. We have been having lots of fun together as a family and that makes it easier to deal with being tired and grumpy. Though I have been kind of short with my son. I am trying to make sure he get's enough love and attention, but sometimes he acts like he is totally neglected and like he is abandoned regularly, which he has NEVER been left at any time except with people he loves and who love him... so I don't know. New baby syndrome no doubt.

Picture: And here are some fun pics. The first ones are the monthly ones that I'll be taking to see if I have ANY progress at all, and the others are just for fun! :)

 

As you can see, I need to tan my belly.. Blah! I want my old body Back!

7 Weeks PP

Wow, what a time. We had a wedding and a BUNCH of family here over the last month, so posting has not been an option.
BUT starting next week, I'll be tracking my calories, not eating wheat, (because my husband wants to drop the fat on his belly. Silliest thing you ever heard.) I'll post of  picture of him and you'll see why I say this.
I have also come up with a weekly routine. I will be doing palates and HIIT two times a week. Running two times and lifting weights two times. (Or, I will try to get in five to six days of exercise.) I did four days of exercise in a row, which made me happy, but the last two days I have been completely exhausted and at this point exhaustion comes before exercise. I keep telling myself I have the rest of my life to exercise, I just need to get through these first few months.
Emma is doing really well and growing FAST! She is already 12 lbs! I will post pics of her too. I am also really enjoying the record breaking heat of June so far. Since we had record breaking cold for ALL of May, this is a nice recompense.
Like I said, after next week, which will be eight weeks, I will start posting regularly. I also go back to work full time again.. BLAH! Oh well, a girl has to work.

4 Weeks PP

It has been HELL the last several weeks, and thus I have not had the time nor energy to think about posting here. Nursing has sucked seriously big time and continues to hurt every time we nurse. I even went and saw a LC to find a way to help it. Every time it starts getting better, something else happens to make it worse.
So, I haven't done a darn thing as far as getting my diet up to par and exercise is a joke at this point. I've gone for a couple of runs and that's it. I am hoping that after the wedding of my SIL, I will be able to get some control of my life.
I did stop eating sugar for a bit because we had thrush, but have since started since it cleared up. I figured that since I was so depressed a little dark chocolate could only make things better. :)
I will post again when I can and hopefully soon be able to start exercising and eating better...
No pictures, since I look exactly the same as I did the first week.

The 4th Trimester

I forgot just how hard this part is. Wow, I am tired and my ability to cope is at a all time low, just when I need it to be at an all time high. My nipples hurt like hell, even when she isn't nursing and I'm exhausted, and I am feeling fat and ugly and I can't even imagine a time when I'll have the combination of time and energy to actually exercise. I can't figure out how to get my daughter to fall asleep and I can't seem to settle her either. Very frustrating. It feels like this is the way it's going to be forever, days without end. I know that's not technically true, but it just might be. And while I am SO thankful for my beautiful little girl, last night all I wanted to do was stick her in the closet (it's a walk in and very nice :)) and walk away.
Which of course makes me feel like the lowest scum on the earth. Dan got up and walked her from like 12:30 to 2:00 and finally she fell asleep. I can't even imagine doing this on my own!
But I'm thinking that Emma may be the last... Oh and I think we have thrush... oh the joys.....

2 Weeks PP

Wow! I forgot how much I hate nursing! I am sore and tired and the thought of nursing again in less then 15 minutes makes me want to weep..... It will be fine. I will be fine... I won't always be nursing every three hours etc etc etc...

So, here we are 2 weeks postpartum, and very thankful to be finished pregnancy!

I think what I'll do is make a little template of what is happening as far as the weight/fat loss etc and then just post random post as I feel like it until things get going, ie I can actually make it through the day without feeling like I'm going to die of tiredness.

Eating: Well, I haven't started watching what I eat yet, because I am trying to establish a good milk supply and I'm simply too tired to think about it. I have a hard enough time right now just trying to eat. I will be starting to track calories again on livestrong.com, but that won't be happening for at least another two weeks.

Exercise: I did go for a run/walk on Saturday and discovered that I am definitely NOT all healed up enough to be running. I was sore for a couple of days. My lady parts were fine, it was just ALL the muscles that are all stretched out and wobbly still didn't appreciate it at all.
I will wait another week and then try again.
My plan is to do weights at least two days a week. Run a couple of days a week and then do HIIT workouts on youtube and the treadmill. My goal is to build as much muscle back as possible while I am eating a lot (because of nursing) and then when I start to cut back on feedings I'll be able to cut back on food and lose the fat.

Measurements: Neck:12.5 Chest:37.5  Midsection:35.25 Waist: 32  Hips:40.5  Thighs:21  Biceps: 11 Forearms:10 Calves:14 Wrist:6 Ankle:9

Weight: I know that the scale is not the best indicator of fitness, but I am going to include it in my blog.
Currently I weigh 149 (or somewhere in there. I didn't check this week.)

Life: Hectic and stressful and very very very very foggy with tiredness. It will get better.....

Picture: Here is the first pic PP. 10 Days since pushing the baby out.

1 week Postpartum

Well I was going to do this on a different page, but I can't figure it out. Oh well. So far things are hard and I am exhausted, and nursing isn't a walk in the park for sure.
I am sure it will get better, but man do I hate the first couple of weeks! I haven't been as depressed this time and nursing is getting better after I started working on Emma's latch and using nipple shields.
In this portion of this blog I am going to keep track of the process of losing all the baby chub. I will come up with some sort of format that is easy to read and in the fullness of time I will start exercising and keeping track of my calories. But I don't expect to start that for a couple of weeks.
I will also take a picture. Maybe not every week, but often enough to see how things are trending.
I got on the scale today and weigh 149, which is AWESOME! I do expect to gain a bit of weight when I start lifting weights again, but that's OK. I will take my measurements soon as well.
Until I have more time, I might not post a whole lot, but these are my good intentions.. :)

Week 40

And I am now writing this on the other side!!! YIPPEEE! I'll get to the birth in another post. But for now, I'll remember what the last day of pregnancy was like. 
It sucked.. :) 

What I love: I was pretty much unhappy, uncomfortable and unable to imagine it ever being over.

What I hate: Everything at that point. 

What I miss: Everything. Being in a good mood. Being able to bend over and stand up with out pain. 

What I’m looking forward to the most: Being normal and having this little one out! Definitely

Worries: Worried that labor would be horrible.. (it was) and that I wouldn't be able to do it (I was) and that something would go wrong... (it didn't.) 

Developments: I had bloody show on Sunday and lots of BH contractions. 

Mood: BAD! Tired. Cranky. Bitchy. Unreasonable. DEPRESSED! 

Sleep: Not great. 

Movement:A lot less movement. It's probably running out of space. 

Bra Size:C. Yuck.

The belly (and the button!): HUGE!

Wedding rings on or off: Off. Maybe I should have put in my most looking forward, wearing my wedding ring again. I LOVE it!

Weight gain: 173 . FINAL!

Measurements:  Large. I'm too depressed to actually check how big and flabby I am. 

Exercise: HA! I'm lucky to be able to walk around. I have gone for a couple of walks and I lifted very light weights yesterday, but I hurt from it... STUPID!

Eating: Fine. Less then I was eating. Not caring still. 

Weekly Pics:

OK. She was actually 8 lbs even so apparently I grow babies a lot bigger then average. 

But here is the pic anyway. 

And the last belly pics HURRAH!!!!!

40 weeks 1 day. And the four week progression. 

And here she is!

Emma Joy Winston 8 lbs 20" long