Week 13

In a few days I am going to be in AZ with my Grandma. Maybe my Grandpa too, but I think he may pass away before we get there. My dad said yesterday he didn't eat or drink all day. I am sad that I won't get to actually see him, but then he won't be the same Grandpa I have loved my whole life either. I am praying that he can let go and pass away without fear and anxiety. He is 92 and he has lived a very full life. Uhg. Life is not easy at times. 

Week :13
Can you believe that is is already the end of the first trimester? Wow. This seems to have happened quickly. Which is great! I was already starting to have a lot of pain at this point with Emma and so far, other then muscle soreness from doing WOD's, I've been fine. And BTW the soreness is not from pushing myself too hard, (probably) but from the fact that I just don't recover quickly anymore. All my bodies energy is going into building a human and there just isn't enough left over for my muscles. 

What I love: NOT being in pain! Not being huge! I am really enjoying being pregnant in the summer. It's a new experience for me. Both my other babies were spring time babies, so I was early pregnant for the last month of summer and then fall and winter took over quickly. It's fun to have the summer months for the first part. 

What I hate: Pimples. I do actually hate pimples. They are setting up camp it seems and are making a display of themselves. They can't just be discreet of course, they have to wave their ugly little flags to draw attention to themselves. :) I am still tired too. I think I might always be tired. I can't remember NOT feeling tired. Hmm. 

What I miss: My skinny clothes. I really do. I liked them. They were very nice and now they are in a tub. I will miss them for the next year or year and a half or longer. BUT after I get to pull them out, it will be like buying new clothes all over again! Oh the fun! AND I have warned my husband that after I get into shape, I am throwing away anything old and frumpy and buying a fabulous new wardrobe. It will be so FUN! 

What I’m looking forward to the most: Next summer when it's beautiful again and the pain of labor and nursing is over and I can just relax about it for the rest of my life! Wow! Does that sound WONDERFUL! AND THEN, we can go on a really fabulous family trip in about another year or two and have TONS of fun with an elementary student, a kindergartner and a toddler. It will be the best! 

Sleep: Yes. If I could just make myself go to bed at night instead of reading or watching TV or just enjoying the SILENCE of the evening hours, I might get more of it and not be so stinking tired all the time. 

Bra Size: B! I feel like I am still growing. I don't understand this. I was still an A at this point last time. I am worried I will continue all through and be a DD. NOOOOOOO!!! I seriously keep holding them and going,. "wow, WHAT is happening??? STOP!" I know it's silly, but it's a bit alarming too. 

Wedding rings on or off: On. As long as I drink enough, I can still get it on and off. Until I can't I'm going to keep wearing it because I LOVE it! 

Weight: 145. .8 to be exact.    Weight Gain: So now we are back to two pounds gained. I don't know. 

Worries: Not related to the pregnancy, though I probably should be worried that I haven't done a prenatal since 8 weeks. I was thinking I would get through being gone to AZ and worry about it after that. I am still so early that I don't like getting dopplared as it can be difficult to find the heart beat and who wants that worry? 

Symptoms: Tired, bloated, BIG BOOBS! I am have been feeling pretty good otherwise. 

Mood: Good. I haven't been nearly as cranky this week as I was last week. Though I am still massively impatient with my kids. But to be completely truthful, I don't think I can blame that on them. I think it's a much more long term problem. 


Movement: Could be. I am not sure. I though I felt it a few days ago, but it could have been gas. 

The belly (and the button!): Continuing in it's outward journey. Though it likes to return to home base at the start of each day..... :) 

Measurements: Chest: 36 Waist: 30 Midsection: 33.5 Hips: 39.25 Thighs: 21.25 

Exercise: Yes. I am exercising. I was going to run yesterday (Thursday) but it didn't happen. It was windy as all get out so I took the kids up to the gym and did a very interesting little WOD. Then practiced double unders. My kids thought that was hysterical and the jumped up and down and giggled as I did it. Maybe I'll figure out how to post the video. I have to run today or do something and then I'll have 5 days. I could have done six, but just didn't feel like it. 

Eating: OK. I found that I really don't want to cut down on carbs. I WANT to eat bread all the time. And so, as Dan has been super careful and very diligent to NOT eat it, I am freely imbibing. It's delicious! I justify myself by the fact that it's summer and we have AMAZING tomatoes to eat on Mayo and cheese tomato sandwiches and that I just want to eat it. I know. It's just sad how my will power to do good has shrunk. And then I made brownies. So good. :) 

The weekly pics: 

Amniotic sac with fluid: Your baby's urinary tract is now functioning; he's starting to urinate out the amniotic fluid he's been swallowing.

Fingers: Your baby now has his own unique set of fingerprints.

Head: Your baby's head is now more proportional; it's about a third the size of his body.

And me:

 

Thoughts on Pregnancy

I don't know if anyone else noticed this, but from my blogging of Emma's pregnancy, you can see that I really struggled with hating being pregnant. I did. I hated! being pregnant! The entire time. I resented getting big and squishy again and all the things that happen in pregnancy that are uncomfortable and irritating and inconvenient. I literally counted days. It was bad. I had a lot of fear going into this pregnancy that it would be the same.
But then I got pregnant and low and behold, it isn't the same. I am fine with being pregnant. I am fine with the fact that my boobs are FREAKIN HUGE! (OK a B but coming from a AA, it's a BIG difference!) I'm fine with the pregnancy acne that is literally attacking my poor epidermis. It doesn't bother me that I am running very slow for me, or that I am tired a lot. It's inconvenient of course, but it's not like I am thinking about it all the time. I literally have to remind myself and think about it before I can answer the question, "how far a long are you?" I'm not thinking about each passing day.
Why? Why the difference? I was thinking about it yesterday and I really think it's because I was "fit" or back in shape after Jackson for literally only a couple months before I got pregnant again. I was almost where I wanted to be at his 1 year birthday and then three months later I was pregnant again. It was a fast turn around and I didn't really even get to enjoy the fruits of my HOURS of labor before I started all over again.
But this time, I was in shape for over a year. I got to enjoy being normal  and vigorous and having two kids who were old enough to be lots of fun AND lots of work instead of just lots of work. AND there is the not inconsiderable fact that this is the last time. I won't have to start all over again, AGAIN! The relief is stupendous!
So, spacing them out as we've done has been the best choice possible and I am enjoying this last journey down the pregnancy road and hopefully as things get more uncomfortable, I'll be able to maintain feeling content and happy.
Though the one thing that hasn't been better is the fear of the actual delivery. Good GOD that hurts and now that I've experienced it twice, I know how much it hurts and there is NO WAY AROUND IT!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!
ONE BAD DAY! It's just ONE BAD DAY!
I went back and read a bunch of this blog. It's encouraging! It really perked me up! :) Working hard and just having a daily habit of exercise and eating better does really work. Even reading about my progress in Crossfit has been really encouraging. Yes, I still can't do most of the advanced moves or lift the Rx'd weight, but I AM stronger then when I started, I AM able to do many things that I couldn't before and lift heavier as well. I DON'T have ANY pain yet in this pregnancy. I am also not pushing myself to be fast when I run and I'm not running half as much as I was with Emma. But I am doing more CF and I really do think being stronger is making a big difference. Those millions of squats that I've tortured myself with have strengthened my pelvic girdle and my sacrum and so it just doesn't hurt. I'm hoping maybe even into the third trimester.
I also want to say I've only gained 2 POUNDS since I started. WHAT? I was up by 10 at this point last time. Like I've said, who cares about the scale, but it's still cool. (I also know that I weighed 6 lbs more, but I also know that my measurements were the same and I looked better too so whatever.)
But my boobs are way bigger. WHAT? Like, why? And they are still hurting so I'm worried they are still GROWING! STOP! :) It actually makes me laugh.... Also my but is still small. Yippee! Like my hip measurements haven't changed. At. All. WOW! I was up by over an inch and a half this time last time as well.
So to sum up, this pregnancy I am happy, my boobs are bigger but my butt is smaller. I can't run fast, but I don't hurt and I'm stronger oh and I'm not gaining weight as quickly either. I kind of think my belly is sticking out more too, but who knows when it's primarily bloat and guts at this point anyway.
Be encouraged oh readers of this blog. Bad experiences can be turned around. Thank the Lord for that!

Week 12

Week: 12

Well my Granpa is not doing well and so my sisters and I are going down on the 21st to be with him and support my Grandma. He is 92 so this is not a surprise. I am sad about it though. It hard to see people who've been so much apart of our lives sick and failing. I am leaving my kids for 8 days too, which is a lot more difficult then I thought. I'm nervous just thinking about all the details for 

What I love: So far, not pain. Yippee! That's good news! 

What I hate: Fatigue. Being tired all. the. time. Oh well. I'll be even more tired after the baby is born. 

What I miss: Not much this week. 

What I’m looking forward to the most: Being finished having babies. 

Sleep: YES! 

Bra Size:B! It happened FAST!

Wedding rings on or off: On, but it's STUCK! 

Weight:  146  Weight Gain: 3 lbs from pre pregnancy - 5 lbs from sometime in the first couple of weeks. It went up to 147, but then back down again. Whatever.

Worries: Are my kids going to be a mess with me gone for a week? Are they always going to be so much work!??!! Will I be a comfort to my Grandma? Etc. 

Symptoms: I can now feel when my bladder is full when I am in bed. It get's all hard and balloony and I can feel it very clearly. 

Mood: Still more short tempered then I want to be. I need to get my act together. 


Movement: I don't know. It's hard to say for sure. 

The belly (and the button!): Still getting more round. 

Measurements: Chest: 36 Waist: 29 Midsection: 33 Hips: 39 Thighs: 21.25 I did measure this week! Yeah for me! Oh and I am also getting bigger. Big surprise. 

Exercise: So far so good. I am planning to do five days. Hopefully getting a good run in on the weekend. 

Eating: Not too bad, though I've been eating WAY too much fruit as evidenced by my bowels.  

The weekly pics: 

Ear: Your baby's ears are closer to their final positions on the sides of her head.

Eyelid: Your baby's eyelids are less transparent now and her eyes have moved closer together.

Umbilical cord: Your baby's intestines, which have grown so rapidly that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move back into her abdominal cavity now.

Uterus: The top of your uterus (fundus) is starting to rise above your pelvic bones now; you may have noticed that your waist is thickening.

And me:

 

Sucking In and not.

This was 2nd and 3rd pregnancy comparison. 

And I'm growing! 

Week 11

Week: 11
Truthfully I don't remember much about last week. I waited too long to do this. I kept putting it off because I was doing other things. 
Oh well. OH! We did announce on FB that we are expecting. I'll post the picture. 

What I love: Being on my last pregnancy. 

What I hate: That I am already showing. Like hello? How does this happen to me so FAST? 

What I miss: Energy! And my skinny skirts. 

What I’m looking forward to the most: Fitting back into all my nice clothes AND getting NEW nice clothes that I won't grow out of!

Sleep: Oh ya!

Bra Size: A but growing rapidly. 

Wedding rings on or off: On, but it keeps getting stuck because I am dehydrated. 

Weight: 146  Weight Gain: 3 lbs from PP and 5 from after I got pregnant and lost a few lbs. 

Worries: Mostly about my children who have been giving me grief and my Grandpa who apparently is getting ready to pass away. 

Symptoms: Crabbiness..... this is getting more pronounced. I need to watch myself. Fatigue is still doing it's thing. 

Mood: OK. Sometimes not great, but I think a lot of that is because Jack & Emma have been so naughty recently. Emma is really pushing EVERY line. 


Movement: Maybe. Maybe not. 

The belly (and the button!): Rounding out. 

Measurements: Chest: 35 Waist: 28.75 Midsection: 32 Hips: 39 Thighs: 21.25 Didn't check again this week. 

Exercise: Five days this week, with a lot less running because of the heat. I did a lot of Crossfit and rowing and ran 1 day. I can't remember how many miles I did. somewhere around 12 I think. 

Eating: It was good until I went at the 4th of July food. And the ice cream! 

The weekly pics: 

Bone: Your baby's bones are beginning to harden and tiny tooth buds are starting to appear under his gums.

Hand: Your baby may soon be able to open and close his fists.

Skin: Your baby's skin is still transparent, allowing many blood vessels to show through.

And me:

 

Flexing and not. 

The announcement